A stage of exploration

I hate it everytime when i log in to my blog and realise i haven't been posting much entries and am struggling to summarize my highlights for the past month. This blog is slowly becoming a monthly affair.

So many things had happenned in the past month and without chronological order, I am just gonna blah with whatever that pops into my mind first.

After what seem to be a year, we finally meet again. I was so excited with Jen & June's visit to KL. It was an event we had planned for 3 - 4 months, probably more. In fact, the first time in this year that i applied 3 days leave. It has been an incredibly hectic week at work right before they came so their visit to Malaysia happened at the most perfect time when i just so needed a break from work. With no specific itinerary in mind except shopping, eating and some much-needed pampering - it was truly unforgettable.

I was the main consultant that helped contributed to Malaysia's economy through Jen's excessive shopping and am also the main financial mental calculator of the constant conversion of Aussie dollars to Ringgit. lol... June babe, you owe me our photos!! There were lotsa catch up, hard core shopping, excessive bingeing and oh did i mention, french manicure. It was our first and last french manicure. Before i even managed to walk out from the salon, i ruined mine thrice - clearly a sign of insufficient feminine hormones. 5 days of hardcore shopping, I found 2 things that i've always had difficulty finding - a white spaghetti top and a strapless bra. The technical configurations of both the purchased item and my body is just too complicated to describe here.

I felt happy, depressed and hopeful after they left. Happy coz it was a good 5 days get together. Depressed coz i know we wouldn't see each other for another year. And hopeful because i am looking forward to our next gathering in Bangkok. :) Thank goodness I had another 2 fantastic nights at work to cheer me up. It was our Annual Retreat @ Mariott Putrajaya. Man, they have the best beds ever. I have never in my life slept in such a comfortable bed before. Even beating those of Presidential Suite @ Hyatt Saujana. The bonding with the team was very productive and it was my first work "sleepover" or so to speak. I was again the chosen MC for one of the events with the golden opportunity to interview Maya Karin (ex Channel V VJ and L'Oreal Paris new spokesperson).





And just as i begin to settle down in my comfort zone, i was proposed a new career option in which i have to decide by Friday. The thought of it pumps my nerves. I am challenged yet terrified. As cliche as this may sound, it is an obvious choice of staying in my comfort zone or taking risks in life.

I also realised how thankful i am now that i have Fri cells, Sun service and a good ol' book to keep my mind sane. Currently reading: Anyone out There? by Marian Keys.

All this with the company of my soul mate. *grin* What more can a girl asks for?

Because i am sleepy now, i wanna quickly conclude this entry with another 5 things tht made my month a highlight - 1. a fine purse from Japan 2. my new workstation 3. a good group catch up with fatso Richie 4. my new L'Oreal make-up toolbox that weighs 5kg and 5. finding a car park within 2 mins in Murni last night.

And just before u start thinking everything's going well with my life right now, i also wanna highlight 5 things that made my month a bummer - 1. RM 100 saman fr MPPJ for illegal parking @ Raju's 2. Again slapped with 780 bucks of road tax plus yearly car insurans 3. my increasing jealousy towards my best friend just because she owns a pink PS 3 & a brand new mini ipod shuffle within a month 4. the sudden realisation that if i keep losing my appetite and keep losing weight, it is not gonna do any good to my already bamboo-looking body and 5. tomorrow is Monday.

And because i am broke and i thought since i'm broke ANYWAY, why not treat mum her birthday dinner @ Tamarind Hill tonight. :)

I need to start exploring my new bikini. Bought it a year ago & have not worn it yet.

Dreams

I've always wondered how accurate dreams are. I've had my fair share of good, bad and weird dreams. I remember when i was young i dreamt that i was peeing in my primary school loo, only to wake up finding myself wetting my own bed. Of course, with which i shall not disclose my age then.

I remember vividly those moments i had when i was awake, feeling... Hey, I've dreamt about this scene before. And it's actually happening right in front of your eyes. Deja Vu. I also remember those dreams when I keep on falling and falling and falling until I'm awake.

Amanda once told me how a ghost "slept" on her and she was awaken from her dream but she couldn't move an inch. I experienced that once before. And choose to believe that I was just plain tired to move and consciously went back to sleep.

Few nights ago, I dreamt something so vividly real that I can still feel it in me. It was so clear. It happened (or rather will be happening) in Dec 07 in Melbourne. Jeremy propose to me at my brother's wedding. (!!!!) I was there for Andy & Audrey's wedding and straight after the dance, he walked up to me said he had yet to let me go and couldn't bear living another second without me. He knelt and propose with a ring he bought from Melbourne Aquarium (one of our dating spots).

I've heard from somewhere dreams at night usually portrays your inner feelings when you're awake.

Nah~

When old pals meet..

you let yr hair down. When old pals meet, u lose yrself and only care abt them. When old pals meet, it's as though nothing in the world matters but carefree, unconstructed conversations.

The gang came over for CNY gathering today. Though we still miss Yvonne's & Amanda's presence. It was fun enough just to see their big fat face. *grin* High school memories flood again and being jst the way we are, we were childish. Stucking our tongues out while playing cards, showing our thumbs when someone loses... and of course, bingeing on the spread of cookies on the coffee table. I used to dwell on the fact that we are no longer as "close" as before because we don't see each other so often.

I was wrong. Throughout the years, i realised that the best of friends are not judged by the frequency of our meet-ups. But it's this special feeling u have whenever u're with them. It's extremely comfortable, non-judgemental, carefree and unplanned. I have to say, this are the bunch of people that keeps my feet to the ground. :)

Showered Sam with sooooo many make-up products I think it's sufficient for her to last the whole year. hehee... Go and show to the world that tax accountants in the Big 4 does not mean looking like a geek. Congrats girl! You're moving into another phase of life. Tip for my best friend: It's very easy to get sucked in the corporate world but have a few things that keeps yr senses. (eg. YH, close family ties, US) :D

CNY holidays have been faaaaantastic! It was a total relaxation year... I've never thought abt work even once. It was a week of catching up, poker, alcohol, ang pows and FOOOD. *nyek nyek*

I've been thinking right.... how do u differentiate between what is love and lust?

Currently anticipating: to watch Saw III. *grin*

My wedding....

Guess what?!!!!... My bro's getting married.... *jumping jumping* Wooohoooo~~ It's so cool man. Andy proposed to Audrey yday. And obviously, she said YES. :) A new member to the family. I'm so excited. She's no longer my future sister-in-law. She IS my sister-in-law.

And he popped the magic question in a yacht he rented. Took her out to the sea and of course, my secretive brother didn't quite tell me the details lar... like what he said in his "speech". Can't believe it's all finally happening. Was talking to mum abt this. She too is speechless.... i mean, being a mother-in-law at the age of 45. WOW! And i am predicting, in 2 yrs time or less, you guys will see pics of Andy and Audrey junior running around....

Really felt that things are happening so fast. Fr high school to uni to graduation to working life and now married life.

I always think that marriage is a legal certificate to make love. haha... it's not. Really. ;P Marriage is more than the wedding itself. And more than sex. You can love a person but living with a person is a whole new thing.

Have u ever thought of yr ideal wedding?

I've got so many weddings to attend this year....... and this one does feels like my wedding. Congrats you two love birds and Audrey babe, welcome to the Ng family.

Currently feeling: dazed.

The fuzzy feeling

I finally had time to sit in front of the computer today, only to realise flickr decided to have a "massage"... dammit! so yet to upload Korea pics and the latest happenings..

I came to a point where I realised the importance of work life balance. it's been a topic I've constantly mentioned, even I feel kinda sick of it. but to acknowledge and to grasp the notion is 2 entirely different thing. I've had a couple of "wake-up calls" fr my colleagues, most are more experienced. In fact, some lost their love ones because of this. And so I have been consistently leaving the office at latest 7.30pm. Sometimes earlier.

Oh did I mention I cut my fringe? Yup yup... I decided to begin 2007 with something new. Something that I've always wanted to do but never quite gather my guts to do it... besides, once u break a resolution, u gotta make it up to it. :) There are pics... blame it on Flickr.

Warm welcome to Ant who's in Malaysia. Met up with him a couple of times and will do again next week when he's back fr Penang. Another one of my fav friend is back too. He's loud. He's fat. He's hilarious. He's Richie. Woohoo~~ havent seen him for a year. And yeah, I miss you. :) Cupcake & I went shopping for ehem!... her darl's Valentine's pressie and someone's bday pressie fr Royal Selangor.

I love getting pressies for close friends. But my fav moment is to see that look in their faces while they rip it off.

Do u know one of the best feelings in the world is to see your boyfriend getting along with your best friend?! And to know that this is only the beginning.............. hmmmm..

Currently feeling: Happy for Sam for her awesome job offers. I'm praying for you for yr interview in Singapore.

The season of giving, receiving & forgiving.

Happy New Year!!!!! :) :) :) :)

To all blog owners out there, ushering new year without an entry abt how yr year has been and yr upcoming resolutions (it's okay even if you don't fulfill it) is a serious crime. Potentially more serious than Saddam's death sentence. And so, it's my turn to blabber...

I remember having this conversation with Phik Jin 30mins before countdown. If i were to summarize 06 in 1 sentence, it would be:

A year of adaptation.

There were so many things that I needed to adapt to since I was back to KL - the weather, the people, a new job, a new love, losing that new love, Jeremy, the changes within my old pals, the changes between me, Cupcake, Jen, June & Elina, adapting a new team member, expectations, new church, new cell group and my new bra. lol.

My boss once shared with me his goals in life. and then he asked what was mine. I was baffled for words. Not because I do not know what i want in future but because i don't know where to start. He urged me to write down my goals - both my personal & career life. According to him, it doesn't matter whether you achieved your goal or not, most importantly, you have some to start off with. and it is important to pen your thoughts and look at it once in a while when you feel as though you've lose yourself.

These are my life goals even if I don't achieve it:
1. Manage my own business one day.
2. Marry a man I love and admire by 27.
3. First kid by 29. Second by 30. Third by 31. (!!!)
4. Buy a sporty 4-wheel drive (thinkin of Rav 4) by 26.
5. Serve or lead a church ministry.
6. Forgive dad.
7. Travelled to Greece, Eygpt, Europe and Antartica by 30.

Hence, my 2007 resolutions are:
1. Stay single. Try to stay single.
2. Second promotion by July.
3. Attend cell. Seriously.
4. Climb Mount Kinabalu.

A few weeks ago, my church pastor said a sentence, which hit me and has since stuck in my head. This was what he said and elaborated for 1hr:

"Do not let the world and the pressures of work kill the child in you."

What a confronting moment!

I met this vibrant 20-year-old girl, whom i jst known for 3 seconds and i was attracted to her. because i felt like i was talking to myself.

Merry belated Christmas, peeps!

Korea blog to come soon, no mood for that at the moment.

1 month in 1 entry

When work and social life gets the better off you, you neglect your poor blog. My brother was just being a plain busy-body yesterday and this was the conversation we had:

Little brat:"What's about you and blogging?"
Me: "What's about you and those girls?"

Good things first. I got my first ever promotion!!! *jumping* Yes, it's the time of the year again. My first ever year end review and it went well. :) Of course, there were the bits and pieces to improve but what the heck.. nobody's perfect!!

Another bouncy news - Sam's back for good!!! :) :) :) *muacks* You have no idea how much i miss this woman. Finally!! saw her 2 days ago @ Murni. Can't stop pinching her when i saw her. Lucky her we met at a public mamak.. otherwise, she'll risk me pouncing on her. But sadly, Amanda's leaving on Wed. :( When one comes back, one has to leave........ haih~ when does it ever end? Sudden thought about working in Paris...... hmmmm.... wonder how it's like!

Then, it was the memorable wedding of Dian & Jared. There's only 1 word to describe it - breathtaking. It is by far the most creative wedding I've ever attended. They have all this personal touch that makes the whole wedding so THEM.



And then, there was another friend who's gonna get married soon.. next year actually. She came down from Sabah and we throw her an engagement cum catch-up party @ La Bodega. It was a pink affair.......... Congratulations Marie! You managed to conquer a relationship which I've always admired - your high school sweetheart.



How can i fail to mention Zijill's surprise birthday party?!... Oh, it was a blast. Not the place though. should've choosed a better location than Soul Out. It's a great place to hang out but too noisy for serious conversations. I would give anything to see that look in her face again when she saw the whole gang sitting there at the corner with a smirk at their face. Happy birthday pal... always remember "The only reason why you're feeling this special is because you ARE special"..



This is my workstation:



Yes, it's a yellow duck and a pink dog holding on to a heart-shaped love. It was given to me and it shall by no means, categorised me as a girl who love bears. I mean, it's pretty obvious right....?!

And this is a picture of me and a man I admired, loved and hate:



Currently feeling: Excited about family trip to Korea in 2 weeks time.

Question: What do you do when your best friend of 7 years confessed his feelings again?